LIFE.....A chain of positive thoughts....

LIFE…….A CHAIN OF POSITIVE THOUGHTS ….

Ahh, not again yaar….its 6.30 AM and alarm was failed as mobile battery was down last night. I scrambled and started my morning journey in hurry….”as usual, it will be late again”, I mumbled… I picked up my brush and without thinking of bit of rest, I thought of making tea for myself simultaneously… and what!!! Tea powder was not there as my father forgot to bring that yesterday… oh yah, trapped!!! then how should I start my day without a cup of tea…I started thinking and with big sacrifice I took “Green tea” making weird faces…oh wow…a day started like this…

It was 7.30 AM and I supposed to leave home by 8 AM to reach office in time… Yet I have not finish making tiffin for myself and my sister… I asked mom to prepare breakfast and lunch for a day, but very calmly she denied and ran away for morning walk…I have just done with salad and roti.. “Hamm breakfast and sabji will take another 10-15 mins to prepare” I mumbled and decided to just make a sabji and finish it off….

Wow, ureka…Finally I was on bike at 8.15 AM. I wore raincoat as it was rainy day. I insert ear phone and played a nice song “ barso re megha megha”. I wore helmet for security and started my journey for office…

At least I will reach by 8.45. I thought and what !!!! My bike started giving sounds like bhuh bhuh bhuuuuh bhup bhup and stooped in between. Now what again???  I took my bike aside (as heard lot many horns in that heavy rain, Irritated!!! ) and checked petrol, which was empty as expected. Hum, by keeping as much as patience, I brought my bike at petrol pump with lotzz of efforts after 10 mins. Barso re megha megha sobg was over and started with one Marathi song “ he Jeevan sundar ahe- from chaukat raja”…haha…”Really, he jeevan khupch sundar ahe…heavy rain. Late journey … lot of traffic and my wonderful bike…J “..

I took turn towards highway…Now rain also slowed down and I could thought of driving with little fast speed. And what, my mp3 player paused suddenly and cracked some voice… As I was driving on highway, I couldn’t stop and continued with that crackled voice (and little bit song in between) till office….I checked my MP3 cord I found damaged and last song I heard was “ tujase naraj nahi zindagi, hairan hoon main…ooo hairan hoon main…” hahahaha…such main !!! hairan hi hoon main aaj…

Now I am in impatient mood completely…..I was already late to office…and all colleagues were looking at me like I did something very terrible… “calm down calm down” I told myself and sat down…

The day started with big mess…work pressure and some site issues… Bossgiri….a small fight with collogues…mood offs… complaint calls from home…. Chidchid….anger and finally total disaster of mood….

I returned home with tiring feelings… My mom was in tension because of some family issues and she started complaining the things. I was in big hell condition and started shouting at her.. In anger, I just went to sleep without having food. One thing didn’t work properly that day… My anger was blown off in such a way that, it never… I was in dilemma, whether to cry or to get angry and shout… I chose anger, as my tears were already fade away in last few years.

I was thinking whole night….what was my mistake….whether its alarm which was not rang or a heavy rain, which made me irritated? Or  my bike, which was biggest reason for my late mark in office…or my mood who is not taking my permission while changing…. Uff, it was a mess… I was not even coming to one point and finding conclusion… I found myself angry and negative.. I felt it from inside…even a small reason was enough to make me distracted and collapse….y…y this….is this me?? who was very happy go lucky and complete idol for others  during school days…college days….early stage of job???…..Nah, Its not me…she is changing….slowly….but towards negativity…..

On similar week…..the story continuous with little changes in situation… The difference is only with MP3 players songs like “such kehe raha hai diwana, dil na kisise lagana…”, “ sun raha hai na tu, ro raha hoon main..”…. Haha…I was thinking that this MP3 player is playing a main role in this situation…

On weekend, I woke up little late.. I have done with my routine works by 1 PM and thought of doing some additional work… I got ready and kicked my bike and went to our regular tailor, where I gave some cloths for alteration… He was around 60 years old and the shop is a small tapari. He and his wife started this business around 20 years ago, when his daughter died in an accident. Her photo is there in shop. I used to see this scenario for many years.. They both were calm and they talk very less. Whole atmosphere is very lonely and shy. With deep breath, I came out of that shop and thought of buying some medicines. I went to my regular medical shop and saw that it was closed due to Sunday… With grit in mind, I thought of buying some vegetables and went to local market, which is around 20 mins away from my place. While reaching there, I saw the notice board that market is closed due to heavy rain…  What’s that….Just a single work I did in last 1.5 hour…what I am doing…. I was getting bored and many thoughts were knocking my head… You have wasted one Sunday, which you can spend nicely… You are doing unwanted work…now, the day is almost over to start some another work…n all…. I sat down there on a bench and thought of spending my remaining day nicely…. I called my best friend and told her to meet somewhere… But, she was busy in her work schedule and already had planned a day…… I was about to cry… lot many things came in my mind…my sick grandpa, grandma, my injured uncle… My incomplete dream of classical singing …My fear about study….cold wars between friends and relations…My failed love story and many more things…y, y these things are happening with me only…. Y I m wasting my energy…time and everything, which I don’t want….

The day ended with this and again in night I started thinking… how to overcome from this negativity.. how to be bold, confident and very positive as I was earlier to be…

Next day in office, I declared to join Zumba class and I have started it… I was enjoying each session as it gives me heat…energy…. Confidence and a time for myself….  But, being engaged in one activity  will not work out more… I want something more….something that kick me out….out of all those stuffs happening to me continuously…

On Tuesday morning, when there was little less work load, I was surfing on net and got one good article to read on linked in, titled “ Mindfulness_ essentialism of human life”… I thought of reading few stanzas.. I have started reading and found it very interesting… Mindfulness means keeping your mind in presence. Feeling and giving attention to a present moment, leaving past and future worries apart. Like, if you are in office, just think of work and not about your past moments and future plans. While driving, just focus on driving bike….while reading, just focus on reading the book….most of the people are still leaving in past and carrying burdens from so many years. Rest of the people are very busy for planning their future, which they might not able to see….

I found article very interesting and decided to search more on it. Next day, I opened google and just type a word “Mindfulness” and google did his job very well…. I found so many short stories and articles on it. One of the site I found is “Inspiring tree”… I clicked there are found many short stories under titles like “ small stories on happiness”, “ small stories on inner peace”…” small stories on work-life balance”, “ small stories on handling your temper” etc.

I opened “small stories on happiness” and started reading. A phycology professor enters into class with a glass of water. Glass is half filled with water. He starts, hello students…today I am demonstrating one thing to you. It will be an interactive session … he continuous, “If I hold glass in hand for 5 minute, what will happen?” Students say, “Your hand starts paining”…. “Ok, good….If I hold it for an hour, what will happen?” “Your hand stat shivering and will need extra support to hold it straight” students are now curious….”oh, that’s perfect, says professor…and what will happen, if I keep hand like this for one full day”…”ohhh, students exclaim and say, you will surely get paralysis attack sir”….”exactly….so students, what to do, if I need to reduce this pain?...one student stands up and says, “ sir, drink water, as much as you want and put your glass down..”… “Exactly my boy….well said…So, to relieve from your worries, you need to put your glass down… carrying a burden with you, will not solve your problems, rather obstruct your mind.. It is always better to solve your problems timely and get out of it… but if they are not getting solved, you need to put them down and throw out of your life permanently  ...”

Very meaningful thought indeed… I feel curious and starts reading few more stories… one of the similar story …A story of a jar..

Professor enters into class with glass jar, few balls, pebbles, sand and coffee etc…. Students are very excited about new lesson to learn. Professor starts, “hello students, are you learning from the things which I am demonstrating?”.. Students reply “ Yesss, They are very interesting and motivating”..” Good to hear students…Today, you will learn a very important thing, which you will never ever forget in future..”…Professor keeps glass jar on table and says “I want to fill this glass completely…is it possible?”…students say..” yes sir, it is”….Professor starts inserting balls inside jar…after 5-6 balls, jar gets filled…..” is it filled completely?” professor asks…student say, “ yes sir”.. then professor starts inserting pebbles… almost 10-12 pebbles get easily into it and occupy empty space in between the balls….” Ohhh”, students mumble …” is jar full now?” asks professor.. “Yes sir, it seems to be”, “few replies come….professor inserts sand in jar and almost half cup of sand goes inside.... “Oh my god, we didn’t think that, a sand can fit in jar even though jar is full of objects”… “ow students are very excited and started looking at jar in excitement… Professor smiles“What else can fit inside it?” professor asks…” I don’t think so, because each and every portion of jar is now full of certain things”, a small boy says….professor inserts coffee in the jar and coffee easily get merge with sand and occupies its space…. Now whole class is watching that phenomenon and lost in their world… Professor is noticing their expressions and after few minutes of silence he starts speaking…”so, students, what we learn today? It’s a lesson of word called life…. Our life is like this jar…when we born, we born like this empty jar…Its our choice, our interest, our priorities which decide how to fill this jar…These balls are our family, which occupy majority space in our life….. They find space and fit inside as they are…. Now comes pebbles, pebbles are like our best mates, our friends, colleagues, who are with us for lifetime and are part of our life… They find free space in our life and fit themselves accordingly with no complaints… Sand is our guru, our teachers, our well-wisher, and a god… because of them, we are here… They don’t show their presence in our life but always there like a free moving sand … professor stops and notice expressions of students… students are thinking very deeply…many of them are satisfied and seems happy….” Sir, what about coffee” one boy stands up and says…” Good to see, that you are curious about it my boy…” professor smiles and says “It’s our own time which we enjoy with a cup of coffee”…

Really…. A family….good friends…our guru and well-wisher and cup of coffee…that’s it….a Life is like this only….there is no space for worry….just a happiness…full of jar…..

Our body represents our thoughts…. If we are happy, it shows in the form of confidence, your walk, eye to eye contact, your confident talk speaks about your mood and your way of thinking…. If you are in anger, your whole body shivers and throws bad words outside…. If you are in sad mood, your body weakens down and face become dull and shy….

Our 5 sense work very effectively as per our thoughts and our thoughts decide the mood…. A meditation and Yoga techniques are very well designed to promote your sense towards positivity and make them alive always…. Before starting with yoga and meditation, one can start with a basic exercise… Take 10 mins out of your schedule for yourself…close your eye…..focus on any one sense…like focus on your vision….It shows some past memories or few happy things or sad things…  concentrate on that for few minutes….Take your attention away from vision towards another sense like taste.. Your tongue… You may feel a bitter taste or sweet or may feel neutral….just focus on that taste…After few minutes, bring your attention towards next sense i.e. ear….listen sounds around you… May be you will hear some sounds which you never hear before and find good… It may be a sound of sitar….a sound of singing bird….a sound of your own breath….After few minute pay your attention to nose… you feel smell of rose around garden…or a fragrance of dhup and agarbatti… or a bad smell, whichever you smell, just focus on it for few minutes… Now divert your attention to your last sense i.e. skin… feel touch of your cloths on body….your chain in neck…..your ankles….your figure holding another hand…etc.…You might have feeling these touches first time in your life….so deeply…..so much positively….

Let this process continuous regularly for few months and you will see that your thoughts are changing from negativity towards positivity… Slowly….gradually….The reason behind it is, our senses are stronger and are attentive part of our body… They sense and feel the things around us and accept only those things which are useful to our body… For e.g., if you eat bitter food, your tongue throws it off instantly without even knowing to us. If dust goes in your eye, your eye will not open properly until it throws it off completely… If you feel bad smell, your nose stops breathing for a while and wait for some action like picking handkerchief etc.… If you go nearer to fire, your skin sense acts so fasts that you move away from fire very quickly to avoid body harm…  They are so positive that they will not allow any damn thing to harm our body…. If they are so positive and supportive, why our mind will not?

Study says that, most of the diseases are due to negative thinking and tensions. Heart attacks, paralysis, high blood pressure, mental disorders are due to human nature of overthinking, which impact our body…. Just a one thought daily can destroy our life….so can’t we stop that one thought??… yes y not yaar, we can and we will definitely… Positivity is chain of positive thoughts, positive energy… A human being have that power to generate that energy by thinking of one positive though… A human with great positive sense can transfer this energy from one human being to another and make them feel too… A life is a journey….a cycle…a chain of positive thoughts of a very powerful engine called “ Mind”..

My journey towards positive thought starts from that day… I have started writing blogs again after many years… I have started Zumba classes on regular basis to motivate my thoughts and throw garbage from my body… I have started interacting with real life motivators, who are influencing me… I have started planning of my work and adding new ideas / innovations to make my work to make things better and better… I have started small meeting with my family members after office and spending quality time with them, to share thoughts and listen their too… Its interactive session and getting more and more exciting day by day….just believe me, it’s fun!!!

Yesterday, I have visited that tailor shop, and saw one more frame near to old one, where that tailor was talking with a great scientist and last president of India APJ Abdul Kalam… I asked him the story behind it and He was very excited about sharing the same… Mam, This picture was taken few years ago, when I was very positive about my life and was part of social communities. APJ Kalam sir, visited our trust and appreciate our efforts and the photo was taken at that time…I left that charity trust, when my daughter died…I was living lonely life…My wife started this tailoring business and to spend time I help her in that… My life changes one day, when I saw my daughter’s letter in her bag..She wrote letter to her teacher saying that, I am proud of my family as they are part of  that charity trust and that thought bring me back to my social life…Now we both are part of one charity trust which is working for child education and I am investing half of my money for them and I am getting true joy… Tears come in my eye and I congratulate them…

A single thought of change….changed his life….then y not a single thought of joy every day in morning, change my life?

Every morning I am waking up with one very positive thought like, I am driving a car today…I have learn new dance today in zumba class, I am writing a blog today….I am publishing my book..” Manatale…”, I am kissing my sister’s forehead as she won “ outstanding performance award”..  I am clicking a photo of rose in my gardern… I am shopping for my mom and dad…Even things which was part of my past llike Dr. sangharsha appreciation for motivating him with short stories and posters during one training session is alfa laval….My poem in Cummins college magazines “ Kshitij” for every year…. My play in “ Gandhar” event… My teacher’s letter to me as “ Adarsha Student”… My singing class teachers love… Soman sir’s blessings for my engineering graphics paper…Mule & Musale mam’s regarts to my parents during school days..A memorable diary gifted by my angel sister on my birthday, which has messages from my friends, well-wishers and family…even a very interesting thing i.e 4 peacocks I and Rucha saw on ARAI tekdi last weekend, which is called as “ Durmil yog”…haha…literally amazing !!!

Now-a days, my MP3 player is also playing funny songs, “ tu khich meri foto…”….” Banno tera swagar lage sexy..”…” bholi si surat aakhon main masti dur khadi sharmaye…haye haye…” hehe…may be he is also supporting me for my newly started journey......

Yes…and its working…. Things are changing…I am feeling inside….don’t you??? Sooooo, start with me… Take a breathhhhhh and close ur eye….. J