It’s a memory flash by google and showing memories 4 years ago….wooowhhh…a tiny face with pretty eyes are looking at me….smiling and crawling over the blanket and coming towards me, oh mumma just take me up and hug me….
I was unconscious when I saw her in hospital. Lying near me….She was sleeping….It was few hours I delivered a baby….I heard her crying voice before going to sleep and I was relaxed...I asked doctor hows the baby,she said..baby is fine …I asked her is it a baby girl or boy..she said, it’s a girl !!! I smiled...After few hours when I woke up, I tried searching her….she was sleeping and suddenly she woke up and looked at me…wow, the eyes are sooo beautiful….tears came up from my eyes and from that moment she is just and just mine….my tiny little miracle is having place in my heart..!!!
She was so small..just like a cute doll….sometimes crying…sometimes playing…sometimes sleepy…sometimes just crawling everywhere looking for me or her dear ones…. I just feel it’s a miracle happen to me given by god….Her eyes, her smile, a tiny tooth I saw when she laughs, her tiny hand, tiny feet, some funny expressions !!! hummm .. many more….I always have one room in my heart for all of these…
Day by day the tiny miracle is growing….She started sitting and ah that was just a moment when she suddenly started sitting by her own and when she realized that she started laughing…There were 2 smiles in the room…one was her and one was mine….hug, kiss and cuddling then lots of fun was there that time and yeah because that was first time happening with her and with me too….That cute ever laugh have a place in my heart forever !!!
One day I was just relaxing in chair and thinking about having a cup of tea….So, I just wanted to go to kitchen.. when I started walking I saw she is also taking her few steps to come to me… She was trying hard to get up….step one by one…then fall down and again getting up….She was just busy being herself and trying and suddenly she took 4-5 steps continuously and the joy she had on her face was magical….My parents started clapping and calling her…come dear…come close to us and giving boost to her efforts and that 1..1.5 feet miracle was walking on floor and giving joy to all of us…The day I saw her doing all these, my tiredness, my stress gone away and I thanked god for being with us always….The tiny walk feet are having place in my heart from that moment forever..!!!
The time when she was just new born…having tantrums….milk routine of 1..1.5 hours….playing..drinking..sleeping….crying..waking up…and that continuous till 1.5 years…Those were exhausting days, but all are not similar….The crawling stage…sitting stage….having her first teeth…trying for food after 6 months….walking phase…all were different and excited too…The day I remember, she started taking food with taste and liked it, I gave her parathas, cheese, curd rice, varan-bhat-tup, dudh poli, sheera, fruits etc. she started enjoying….and her sleep time increased at night for 3-4 hours….I was bit relaxed…. We took a tricycle for her….we went for hours in long street route to see cat and dogs and cows….trees, airplanes , a moon and that’s just new to her, as she is experiencing all that first time…I have seen curiosity in her eyes for first time experience in all things… She started pointing out things and tries to speak…That small pointing figure and first word I heard from her are always having place in my heart..!!!
Such small moments with her are memorable and miraculous … A day out with her father… small trips within India…. Visits to gardens….spending quality time with parents….some random clicks on camera and getting candid pics….some are like a frame on wall…those were cute like her….my favorites….
I remember trying to get out of her diaper routine and wanted to start panty routine. We thought it will be tough…We thought that she will refuse or do pee everywhere…so we have ordered sofa and bed plastic covers. Then we took her to washroom and I told her to do pee… She was bit afraid to see first time peeing and thought of crying too….yeah and that’s obvious….peeing inside diaper is completely different and its sensitive for her… She was so matured to realize that its safe being pee at washroom …She hold my hand and laugh with tears….I was so emotional that time and felt heart full of care and love for her… She was just amazing for me….supporting me each and every time I wanted her to become… !!!
When other mothers says, we need to keep habit of this and that for child, my child didn’t put me in that trouble of making a habit…she listened, she had faith in us and she tried and made all that happened and then didn’t looked back… I love when she says “maya maya” and place her little hand on my face, kissing me….I love when she says “shambho shivahare shankara” while taking bath….I love when she tries everything by her own like opening her tiffin and eating food by herself, going to washroom and cleaning it, having glass of water and drinking by own, going to school and having her favorite shoes, going to playground, searching for new ideas and playing with same toys with new creativity…calling us by our names an smiling….Calling alphabets, colors when I was sleeping just beside her (which once I tried teaching her), and yes singing rhymes loudly when we are tired and waned to sleep…haha…I do remember I tried listening it at 1.30 pm midnight…
Lot of people said, we need to do that, we need to do this, but for me she is exceptionally different from other children…supportive, understandable, adjustable, caring, loving and making me a proud mother all over times….She listens to both of us without argument, she understands and try to do things by own, she eat Indian traditional food by choice unlike junk foods and adjusting to environment that’s her bravery I must say… I hope our love and trust in her is making her to do all these…. We say, children are like god and taking care of them gives god’s blessing. In today’s world when I see struggling mothers, having lots of expectations from children, having competitions, struggling for habits, struggling for being a good mother, struggling for child’s health and many many more, I must say my girl made me proud without giving me a single thought of struggle…
Today the time I am writing all these for her is because she is giving me cute moments to cherish and record somewhere, so that when she grow up and I want to tell cute stories of her I have lot many to tell….
She is grown up girl now…yes, she is 4….Today I took her to school….she is having habit of taking soft toys along with her while going to school….Thats so cute, but ahh school refuse to keep that with child….She cried first day, second day she refused to take it away , third day she kept it with her…Today she was going inside and teacher was like oh damn, she bought little shark with her again….teacher was in hurry to take her inside and suddenly she looked back, smiled at me and gave shark toy in my hand and said bye bye…The moment was so touchable and I felt emotional looking at my princess as like she is just made for me….we both smiled and walked away to gather lot and lot such moments every time..every day and forever…I took the toy and kept it inside bike…The bike was overloaded with raincoat, helmet , carry bags etc. I took them off and put inside the sack and made a space for little toy.. I know I have to keep the space for her everywhere with love, care, support always & forever !!! lots of love !!!
